Getting there....

I feel much better today. Boy - the fill knocked me around this time (and I have a bruise about 50c piece size around my port scar!). I had all the pain I had after the op this time with wind build up - excrutiating! Anyhow - I'm on the mend and am on mushies again and will be back on solids tomorrow. I'm back to eating minimal amounts and satisfied easily and for long periods which is what it's all about and to top it off I'm losing weight!!! I'll report on how much on Monday.

A little about fills.....since I know you are wondering!

I went to the Dr. he was disgusted with my weightloss and I was not surprised - he used the word "pathetic". And said it was his fault really as he has been too conservative with me and I don't have what I should have in my band. So he proceeded to put 1.5ml in my band - this he did by putting that great big needle in my stomach and waving it around in my stomach until he hit the port. Yes - it hurt a lot........a f**king real lot. He couldnt find the port at first so pulled it out and changed to a shorter needle....so I had to go through it again. He eventually found it after excrutiating pain (a pap smear is preferrable). Then I did the water test and failed. Couldn't get a half a glass of water down without feeling it sitting at the back of my throat....so then he decided to take half a ml out. So I had to go throught the needle bit again - same procedure only backwards.....yeah that was just as much fun.

I went home to my mum's (an hour away) and took 2 tablets as the wind had built up by then and went to bed for a couple of hours. I then got up and drove 4hrs home to Dubbo. Well by the time I got home I was in agony from wind pain (just like after the op). So took more tabs and went to bed. Laying down I'm fine.....anything upright is gurgling pain. I rang the doc this afternoon and told the nurse what was going on. She talked to the doc and he suggested I get half a ml taken out. Well - the only person in Dubbo who can do it has gone on leave until the 12th Nov!!! ##**!@% Anyway - I rang back and he suggested I take wind tabs and panadol and see how I go.....If it's no better tomorrow I'm back in the car and off to N'Castle. I don't love my band at the moment. I went on to mushies tonight (executive decision by me) as I think half the problem was that my stomach was plain empty. Had runny salmon and cheese sauce about half a cup - it was the most glorious food I have ever eaten and I feel a little better. We'll see how I go overnight.....watch this space!

Some positives...

Before I had my banding I was trying to control the onset of Type 2 diabetes. It now looks like I've got that under control. My blood pressure was also a little bit high before banding and yesterday came in at 120/80! So there are some positives showing already apart from going down 3 sizes in clothes!

I've booked in a week early for my fill so will have that next Tuesday now. Can't wait - I want to lose more weight. Now I've started I want more!!!!!